where is my shined life?

What make me happy? Hmmm..... Lots of things can simply cheer me up. Music makes me happy, it'll be always no music no life. Music swings my mood. Soft, hard rock, sentimental, rhythm & blue, jazz, sometimes clubbing remix..... I love to dance. That's why i love music so much, b'cos dance & music are linked. Well, besides that, coffee is the sun shines my day. The aroma of the coffee intoxicate me. But sometimes i can't have it when i think of it, just b'cos i'm afraid i'll be awaken for the whole night long while the next day i still have to work. :(

Sometimes i do think that life becomes directionless. What is the point to live on? Even a simple thing like what to have for dinner, i'm blanked. Now i'm earning for my own, but i do not dare to spend, just afraid of over-spent. I love shopping, but still i can't really spend for it, what i like to buy. I wish to travel, but i need a companion & time available. Friends are dispersed out of nowhere. Everyday go to work, then eat, sleep. The next day keep going with the same thing again. And sometimes saturday have to work for full day. Sunday is the only day to rest. Monday rotates the same thing again. What's point to have life like this? I need some spices added into my life. When working, i keep looking at the monitor. When coming back home, i look at my laptop. I want some outings. I want to look at others instead of just a screen. I want some greenish view. I want crazy acting. I want to do something i wish to. I wish you are here.

Can i shine?